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The Universe Knows

What a lesson we have had in the workings of Universal wisdom, applied for the wellbeing of our equines. As I write this, it has been one week since my friend and I drove across New Mexico and picked up a new intake from up north. This mare, Sugar, had been with her family for over a decade. Over time, Sugar had lost her sight in one eye; then became blind in the other. She had a bonded pony up until he passed over last year. As Sugar lost her eyesight, her people had attached a bell to her pony’s (breakaway) halter. When I got the call about taking her into Sanctuary, she fit the criteria. Her family was moving overseas and, even if they could take her, such a trip would not have been fair to her. She’s an elder.

Our trip to get her was eventful. On the way up, with empty trailer, a car pulled out in front of us and my friend avoided a wreck with some skillful maneuvering! This made us decide to take a different route home! We had an option down through small towns on decent roads without big city traffic.

Sugar’s humans are the most loving people you could ever meet. The mare was and is, adored. She loaded in the big, airy trailer without hesitation, and we got her home safely before dark. Her family drove down with us and could reassure this sweet mare that she was not being abandoned.

Sugar went into the Quarantine Pen beside the house and with the road beside it. We watched her all night on the camera and went out to visit and reassure her. One rattling flatbed trailer went by and it worried her. Mark and I talked about her blindness and the vehicles (some ATV’s with flashing pillars of light and music) that use our road… and although almost everyone slows down passing the Sanctuary, we felt concern.

The facts were – we knew Sugar’s history. She had been cared for by her Vet and farrier, lived by herself, was essentially “in quarantine” at home for ages. Healthy and gentle, Sugar could break quarantine right away without it being a danger. Heck, we knew more about her health than that stallion who used to get loose and “visit”! So, we shifted horses. Sage went to DH1; Andy moved over beside the track; Billy moved over to where Andy had been, opening Billy’s stall/pen for Sugar. This put Sugar right beside the pony, Jasper.

Well, the Universe does direct things. A pony was just the thing for Sugar to feel more at ease. And Jasper, who shakes (literally) in fear around other horses and ponies/minis, just warmed right up to Sugar! That night after moving Sugar, the ATVs were up and down the road. We made the right decision.

Sugar’s people had given us tack, her blanket and an assortment of ropes and halters… including the pony halter with the bell!

The halter fit Jasper perfectly. We put a leather, breakable crown piece on it. The bell is securely attached and just makes a “clinking” sound that, of course, is familiar and soothing to Sugar. Now, we all know where Jasper is, and Sugar has settled in. This is home now.

Sugar wears a fly mask all the time and has a break-away halter, herself, so we don’t startle her when needing to catch her. We got pool noodles to attach to the one corner in her pen (like we did for Gita, who was blind), for a cushion. Sugar has learned the boundaries of her fences and knows where her stall is. It has been quite remarkable and only a week has passed! We had thought we could move her to the pen Gita had, but this is too perfect to change.

Jasper has a friend, Sugar has a pony, they are a bonded pair.

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Compassion fatigue and the fragility of horses

I’m so often caught between the joy of saving a life and the despair of losing one. Last month, within 2 days’ time, we had to euthanize and bury a beloved blind mare, well in her 30’s, who we had rescued from being dumped in the desert, starving. She lived 4 joy filled years with us. And we had another, Navajo Nations mare, also in her 30’s, colic from sand that builds up in her gut. This mare was saved by our amazing Vet who was able to run a nasogastric tube and release the hard packed “loaf” in her large intestine… I was afraid she could not be “tubed” because she has a large thyroid adenoma. Dr. Heather saved her.

And while these couple of days brought conflicting emotions (to all of us), I held our Vet, my friend, in love and gratitude, thinking about how her profession affects her. She understands my Herbal Horsemanship and we discuss what my medicines can do and what her medicines can do. Together, we have saved many horses here. We also lose some. That is a fact of Sanctuary, especially with such elderly and special needs residents. And that is a fact of the Veterinary profession.

Compassion fatigue definitions vary, but it boils down to feeling worn down by caring for others. How it expresses itself varies from feeling indifferent to the needs of others who are suffering (I have never felt that), to emotional disconnect and physical weariness. I admit, I can feel that. But, in this realm, it has to be short lived, dozens of other horses depend on me. It can even be expressed by “taking on the emotional or physical suffering of another”. Oh, yes… we empaths do that.

A lot of people raise horses, keeping them healthy (emotionally as well as physically) and we have a few here like that. The majority, though, I feel like I hold together with duct tape and Homeopathy! But my life has not just been “caregiver to equines”, I saw my Mum through heart failure, caring for her for over 3 years. I took care of a friend and her farm for 2 years… both up until they passed over. I am caregiver to my brother after his hemorrhagic stroke, which left him unable to walk, talk or see. Now, 9 years later, he can jog, talk and see. I spent 7 months with my teenage stepdaughter, seeing her through a pregnancy when everyone else turned their backs on her. I have saved so many dogs, even living in a shower stall with a Parvo puppy for 10 days… I Vet Teched in my youth and saw how hard it could be on the Vets, day in, day out, caring for clients’ animals and sometimes getting anger in return from devastated owners.

And especially with horses, the “things that can go wrong” run the gamut! While they seem so strong because they are large, their bodies are complex and often puzzling. They are fragile in ways that can creep up and surprise you! Proactive, preventative care is the only way a Sanctuary can run and keep horses (and mules) thriving. And we are not immune from the rage of people who become attached to a horse here. We’ve had helpers who broke down and verbally attacked me over the decision to euthanize a suffering horse or even over the simple decision to move a horse… and I understand their despair or their disappointment. Yet, I’m hurting, too. I make decisions in the best interests of the animals (or, when there is time, the Board of Directors makes the decision). It is actually a privilege to care for these equines and be around them and the majority of those involved here feel that way, too.

Compassion. It is vital. We need to have it for all animals and each other. Some days close with exhilaration and satisfaction (most do!). Some days close with deep, wounding pain and loss (thank goodness, few and far between). Every day has purpose here. When I feel overwhelmed or sad, I do tend to stuff it down deep, as if I might deal with it later… and I can feel the weight of this tactic in my bones. But I wouldn’t want to live any other life. I could learn to take better care of myself… I could find ways to add other “interests” to my life. But that’s not me. Single-minded, sometimes stubborn, always willing to accept help but always wanting to be self-sufficient, I am a horsewoman, a stablewoman. And compassion is my focus.

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